Today I am fighting with the old programming or beliefs about myself. There is this unease. I tend to feel … More
I don’t like being lonely but I prefer it over being mistreated and disrespected. I survived so much. I will trust myself. In this choice I protected myself because I am important to myself. I don’t deserve to be in pain. I made it stop.
For most of my life I have hated myself. I can remember not hating myself, when the world had more … More
It turns out that no one is coming to save you but you. In order to help yourself you will needs lot of things to help you on your healing journey. There are tons of resources, treatments, medications, ect out there and you really have to just find what works best for you. Below is what I have found that helps me so far.
I found this piece that I wrote back in 2009. This was before I had a blog or really told … More
I’ve been The Nothing lately. There have been brief periods of flashbacks and memories. Mostly, I’m blank or angry(memories of … More
I could tell you about my suicide attempts, the thoughts of wanting it to end, and the events that led … More
I am very strict and hard on myself. I usually feel like I am not doing enough even if I … More
My anxiety and insomnia are back again. I’m in another PTSD Episode. This happens and will happen again and again … More
Last night I had fitful sleep filled with nightmares. My brain is working on healing 24-7. Lack of restful sleep … More