It was the perfect day. I believe there are many ways that they can be perfect so there isn’t just one perfect day. Yesterday was definitely one of those days. What made it so perfect? The anxiety that I’ve been feeling for the past several weeks, all of the sudden, lifted. I wasn’t worried, I was having flashbacks, and I wasn’t feeling that stress that comes along with anxiety. It’s kind of like when you have a really bad headache and then that pain finally goes away.
I also got a lot done with my blogs and websites that I’ve been working on. The advice I’ve received in the lessons from the Click Bank University course that I’m taking have been paying off and web traffic is starting to increase. I’m getting a better understanding of what I should be doing to help myself transition from my current career into a new one.
I’m starting to feel more confident in myself and my abilities. Being an abuse survivor and an adult survivor of child abuse can be tough in this regard because it made me feel like I was being treated with abuse because I was not a good person. It’s very difficult to get out of that mindset. I still have trouble sometimes but I feel like I’m really making progress in feeling like that I CAN accomplish the goals and dreams that I want to. I’ve been holding myself back for too long.
I see a lot of other people holding themselves back as well. I try to do my best to encourage others to follow their dreams and get out of their own way too. Anything is possible and if I really wanted I can make it happen. What I want for my life now is peace. Yesterday was a very peaceful day and I’m grateful.
I’ve read that sitting with being grateful every day can improve your outlook on life. I’ve been trying to do think about what I am grateful for every day and to tell others that I am grateful for them. It was a little strange to do it first but now it’s pretty natural and I think it is really given me a more positive perspective on my life.
In the video above is the result of anxiety lifting in me feeling much much better. That’s why it was a perfect day. I was in pain anymore. Other days might get hard and I might feel that pain again. Even remembering past days of pain bring tears to my eyes but I’m doing better. I’m getting better. So if you haven’t watched the goofy video already check out my crazy hair!
I’m sorry to hear that something like this happened to you. I’d love for you to drop a line sometime. I miss you NG. Take care.